||[Jul. 8th, 2013|10:24 pm]
say you are about to start a new job, and you feel scared, you don't know what to expect, maybe you oversold yourself.|
You aren't going to get a good night sleep, so don't go fretting about how you should be getting, you really won't it just won't happen, except it and drink caffeine or something. Or run
Instead use the feelings of lethargy as a "bell of mindfulness" This is what you do. Smile at any tired feeling. Smile at it, and do your best. Smile at any headache, and smile and any butterfly. use these as bell to remind you that you are alive.
Here are some traetgies for doing well.
Just do it. THere is no one else to be, so try to do your best. GO right up to the border line of you can do with whatever resources you have at that moment. Say someone asks you something and you ordinarily know the answer but you currently don't You know what? That's okay. You know why? Whatever you are in that moment is all you can be. You can try hard, or not at all it is okay.
Here are some strategies for realizing it isn't a big deal. It doesn't matte,r you could get fired. Ori told me that if you are driving and you fuck up even if you have to go 10 miles in the wrong direction before you turn around you have to go with the flow of traffic. You can do that, you can also pull over and play in the grass by the side of the highway or examine all the little ridges in the asphalt.
Just go with it. Mybe you'll get fired. Maybe things will be really hard for your employer, whatever it is that is okay, I'm very serious. You might ruin your company and your career, but believe me if you are alive that is okay. If you can breathe you are doing great. SOmetimes I can't breathe I have really bad asthma, but there are still many other sources of joy. So many so many.
JObs are little things that can trick us into think our small piece is all there is, and this means is what takes precedence. Often times it does, often times you do trade off that realization, but remember the beauty of the Grand Canyon in each of your fingerprints, in each thought you can think, the numbness or boredom you feel, that is there, and you can love that. You can love each other.
Call me Yakov cause I wrestle with G-d. What it means, what it all means. Is the Bible true, why doesn't it speak to me like I want it too, and What if I like syncretic Western Buddhism more than Christianity. In almost every reconciliation I have with the New Testament, every time I struggle with what it is, is it true, is it just, am i just, whose way my way, G-d's way, YHWH, The way, the tao, it changes everyday there is no way these words do not speak to me
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
eveyone and the world can see that, even if God means the Tao and or if God means the now, or if God means the trinity, the Father the Son Jesus Christ, or the Holy SPIRIT, or G-d the Lord Hashem, there is no way these words aren't true.
but when you do worry, smile and embrace it tenderly, and smile and smile and smile, it could all be over, don't worry.